Today was a strange day. James wasn’t having his routine. He wouldn’t sleep or would only sleep for short periods. I would take him and play with him but within an hour he was cranky and wanted to sleep. Repeat that all day long. The inconsistency drives me crazy. However, I’m told, that’s what parenthood is. Sigh.
I honestly feel that’s been the hardest part for me. Just the constant feeling of not knowing what to expect coupled with feeling like you have no idea what you are doing. I think if I had to describe parenthood in a word, it would be overwhelmed. In absolute every sense.